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And over the light of that fire, you were still the most beautiful thing I had ever laid eyes on.

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I found another one of your long, golden hairs in my room yesterday.  It doesn’t make sense, I mean, I’ve cleaned it so many times, vacuumed and scrubbed and dusted and just plain thrown things out, but still, yesterday, even yesterday, still I find remnants of you.

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Past tense. Now I other things you. I tell people I’m just storing up for winter. Finding it all and taking it all and moving it all and storing it all, you know, for winter. And this all makes sense, kind of, but really, I mean, I’m allergic, so when winter does finally come, what will I do with all of these FUCKING NUTS?

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I never even imagined that it wouldn’t be forever. I didn’t once even use the word, “forever,” but now it’s all I use, forever. Forever. FOREVER. Everything is forever now, everything is forever or nothing, nothing or forever. Everything is for nothing.

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Maybe I don’t have a type.  People who have ‘types’ usually try to, you know, be with people who are that type.  But with me, I’m just so thrilled, awestruck,just so ecstatic that she would actually talk to me,me with the way I look outside and the way I am inside, I am just so happy she would even speak to me, that I don’t even think about the fact that she’s not my type.  I don’t even think that I barely like this person, that I can barely stand this person, that if I saw this person on the street I wouldn’t even look twice.  But look, she’s talking to me, so I turn to her and I whisper:

“Do you want to, I don’t know, maybe go out with me for 2-6 months, have mediocre sex, crush my self-esteem into a fine dust, and then pretend like I wasn’t the biggest mistake of your life?”

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For all of those concerned about my not updating the site recently, I’m sorry. I never meant to make you think, you know, that something had happened to me. I don’t need that kind of attention. My only excuse is… I’ve been happy. Yes, that’s right, actually happy.

But like all things, it came to an end. An ugly, yelling, screaming, fuck-you-I’ll-do-it-this-time-I’ll-do-it, STOP-FUCKING-LYING-TO-ME-AND-JUST-FUCKING-CALL-ME-BACK, JUST-FUCKING-SAY-SOMETHING, ummm, end.

So, well, here’s a picture of a cat who loves baked beans, which for some reason reminds me of that brief time a while back–shit, it was only Monday, it feels like forever ago–when I thought that I could be like the people on tv.

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Sometimes I can forget that you’re a hollow, dead thing–a fake thing.

Sometimes I can even forget that I was born and bred to hate you.

NOTE: Sometimes isn’t all the time.

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We spent so much time trying to prove things to other people, trying to prove to our families and our friends that we were really in love, that we weren’t really that different from each other.  We said we didn’t need their acceptance, that we didn’t need anything from them, that our love could–I don’t know, that we could just survive.  But eventually, the stares, the whispers, the constant judging, it eats away at you.  It eats away at your love.  Soon–Soon is the wrong word–ULTIMATELY–ultimately the love you thought you had, the love you hope you at some point had, it’s not there anymore, and then all you have is your intense need to prove everyone else wrong, even when it’s clear they were right all along.

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I was going to give up everything, change everything about myself–about me, for you–and now I can’t.

People think they can put stuff in me, like I’m a shoe with a zipper pocket, but I’m not. You’re gonna be upset because it’s gooey, because you can’t hop in and ride around in me like I’m a fucking cartoon. It’s where I carry my children, you inconsiderate prick.